I know this post has come late considering it has already been over a week since the New Year and about two weeks since Christmas, but I’m gonna post it anyway.
So this year’s Christmas was kinda cool because my grandfathers both celebrated their 70th birthdays on separate occasions.
It was great to celebrate Christmas in the presence of family. It has always been a Ha family tradition to do so and it never gets old.
And here are some ridiculous pictures :
It was also my granduncle’s 40th Anniversary of his Ordination into priesthood, so everyone please wish him a hearty congratulations 😀
Oh oh and there’s more. Here comes the exciting part.
During Christmas we also had a family gathering with the Kho family (maternal side of the family) and what I got for Christmas last year is what I’d trade 20 Christmases for :
I am so so blessed.
All in all, I had a great Christmas and I hope you guys did too. 🙂
My New Year was understated, but I wouldn’t have had traded it for anything else in this world.
I ushered in the New Year via Skype with some special people (by having a failed countdown) and I spent the day with my family members.
In all honesty, I have not sat down to properly think about my resolutions for this New Year but I have mentally drawn up a rough list — and here they are (in random order of priority) :
1. Finally gain the weight I lost in 2012
No thanks to STPM, I actually lost 8kg in just three or four months and I found myself weighing a horrifying 40kg before I sat for my exams due to stress. So to whoever says STPM is easy, be right back while I bring my brass knuckles to punch you in the face. I fell sick so consistently before my exams that I thought I’d have to sit for my exams, bedridden.
2. Learn to be more domesticated
Hahaha my parents would be proud. Since I don’t have a full time job to occupy my time during the 9 month break leading up to University in September, I have decided to pick up cooking proper meals. You know, just in case the government decides to dump me in a university far from civilization. I actually already attempted this resolution as I’ve been helping out in the kitchen more, much to my Mom’s dismay. In the process, I earned myself burn scars and blisters from scalding myself while I was heroically making pasta for dinner last night.
In addition to cooked spaghetti, my family members had a side of cooked fingers for dinner last night. Yay!
3. Learn to be strong
This is something that I struggle with, because I take criticisms to heart. In my world there is no such thing as “constructive criticism”, only “destructive criticism”. However, I want to work on it, and in the process, learn to be my own person.
4. Earn a place in a university
This is by far the biggest resolution of my 2013. Due to reasons beyond my control, this is important considering I am “underprivileged” (in controversial terms, something I will not delve further into), it will probably cost me an arm or a leg to get into a government university, living the dream and studying to earn my Bachelor’s Degree in English. Hey, to each his own. 🙂
5. Deal with my personal insecurities
This is probably something every girl can relate to. Whether or not we admit it, we always have our own personal insecurities — be it due to physical defects or lack of emotional drive and strength, and although I am slowly struggling to get over the former, it is something I want to overcome.
Apparently, at 164cm (5’4″) I am short in the eyes of my parents, who are both taller than I am. WHAT!? They obviously have not come across the malnourished girls in my school who I am towering over then. But that’s not my point.
6. Foster closer bonds with the people who matter the most in my life
Over the past few months, I have unofficially been trying to cut drama out of my life. How do I do this? By only dealing with the people who matter to me in my life. The ones who console me when I cry, the ones who say “Screw this, frozen yogurt is the cure to everything — let’s have some now.” or just the ones who say stupid stuff like “The traffic lights are always red when I’m on my period” or “Labuan is in West Malaysia”.
These are the ones who matter most to me, not the ones who are quick to comment on and judge my personal life, even though they have no idea who I really am. These are the people I am willing to cut out of my life without hesitation, all in the name of inner peace. How zen.
7. Be more gutsy
I want to learn to take risks. I want to stand up for myself. I want to shut the naysayers up. I want to be the strong person I always wish I could be. And this is the perfect year to achieve that. I’m turning 20, I’m not getting any younger. Carpe Diem, friends.
And this concludes my never ending post about how I spent my last days of 2012 and how I intend on spending the rest of my 2013. I sincerely hope for a good year for all of us, whether or not I know you personally. May the odds of 2013 be ever in our favour.